Unironically, when you’re looking at spirituality from the level of your intellect is when you get carried away with methods, disciplines, practices, and get rigid about it. It’s not a living experience for you (yet) which can only be found in the Now. It precedes everything including the thought of ‘you’ who is supposed to do the practice of that which is already and always ‘here’.
Point being that do what you still feel the need to do, but know that it will only lead you to ‘here’.
Don’t fool yourself for too long, for you cannot. Here is where you’ve always longed to be. Here is where you always are. It is closer to you than all your thoughts and products of thoughts about it.
It’s only you as a thought-ego that can’t accept that Truth could be so simple and accessible. It thinks that it has to ‘try’. Hold on a second and just be. Are you here now? Are you separate from this moment now? Abandon all ideas and thoughts and go all in into the Now as it comes.