Making a few tweaks in your personality to appear or feel this and that won’t ever make up for all that ignorance—fear, insecurity that needs to be sincerely Seen. If anything, it’s just more Ego—more resisting, denying, image-making, storytelling; more self-deception, simply put.

All the trying and becoming and the need for validation/affirmation that naturally follows leave you emptier. Cut it before you descend any further into delusion. Essentially, there’s nothing like too far down, just that it’s needless suffering and a long road back to sensibility, truth, joy, all of which are always right here if you drop the act, this endless running with all the thoughts, and just be who you truly are—open, innocent, true.

Awareness is the light you need to switch on.

All our thoughts replaced with better thoughts, conditioning replaced with nobler conditioning, and habits replaced with better habits are still worth nothing, they’re only broader structures that still bind us. If you can’t rid yourself of all your structures at once, use broader structures as a railing to climb, but eventually let go of the railing too. To know that these structures hold no existential value, no universal truth, no eternality to them, and are all just a making of your own Mind sometimes useful that eventually need us to leave them behind is epistemic humility and the beginning of true understanding, amusement, and wonder at it all.

Don’t become your practices. Don’t assume the limitations of what you do. None of that is You.

Keep returning. Here and Now. Here and Now.

To lock yourself in any pattern is to become unconscious; it doesn’t matter how good or bad! All such dichotomies are markers of the Mind influenced by Conditioning.

Awareness roots You in the present and your Actions in sensibility and appropriateness without any link back to any Identity formed out of a memory, thought, or imagined or preferred self-image.

You may choose to replace narrow structures with broad structures, or you can destroy structures altogether and flow as an active response to the integrity of the Present, to what’s Here and Now.

Heart Sutra, Ashtavakra Gita, Choiceless Awareness, Aatm Vichaar, Forms/Deities, Shunya, Poorn, Absolute, etc etc are all the same. There are no distinctions whatsoever except the packaging. Leave the clinging to paths, words, and ways behind, as it is just another Thought product and won’t liberate or enlighten ‘you’ whatever you ‘think’ this ‘you’ or ‘I’ is.

If anything, it is a pathless path, and there is not one road that doesn’t end in the same destination, but to ‘try’ to end it is an illusion, a mischief of the thought and the thinker, both of which are not different or apart from each other.

Who you are or what it all is is beyond all thought-conceptions and is much simpler and continual, fundamental.

Who you are isn’t separate from Life, Truth, Love, and Everything that is as it is. Nothing and everything.

What happens in between is the movement of Life moving through you, not separately. Make it fun. Make it full of love. Now is all that is. If you aren’t free here, you won’t be free there because, essentially, there is no ‘there’. Here is Everything, just that you aren’t here (yet). You are in memory or in your imagination, both of which are again just Thought movements.

There’s no exclusive liberation or enlightenment of a Thought that thinks ‘You’, the thought. We can speak the same Truth in many ways. And it won’t matter until you are Here where Life, Truth, Love indistinguishably move—through and through unceasingly without moving.

Life, Truth, Love indistinguishably move Here and Now as You outside of memory and imagination where you get lost chasing hallucinations, confusing them with ‘your life’ and being needlessly dramatic and serious about it AGAIN and AGAIN. Breathe. Be here and now. Be the Awareness of all that moves, for you are That and also ALL of this.

To be alive and to be the Life that we are is enough. All other labels, nouns, and pronouns are unnecessary and a conflict created by Thought that has nothing to do whatsoever with anything Existentially true.

You truly live only when you’re free of images inwardly. Life of images is a hallucination.

It is possible to be without being anything in Mind.

Stop. Stop. Stop.

Where are you running to?

Where to?

Do you see it?

And is that true?

Can you really go?

And who is it that goes anywhere?

You, or a thought?

Can ‘You’ really go anywhere?

Were you ever here to go anywhere?

What exactly happened then?

Why do you keep running? Where to?

One of the biggest traps we fall prey to is being conditioned even by the teachings, which are originally meant to root us in Life, reduce and eventually end our ideas, hallucinations, and distinctions of ‘here’ and ‘there’ owing to a continued preoccupation with ‘I’ that’s bound and that must protect itself all of which happens under various guises. There’s nothing spiritual about being or appearing spiritual. 

The essence of all things is not separate from what is here and now. It is not away from you.

All distinctions must cease. See clearly.

Let the Mind wander where it will; you stay here. To try to control thoughts is another foolish thought thinking thoughts.

Loosen all grip. Let go, which is to say, let it be. No intervention is necessary. Nothing is out of place. Nothing is crashing.

All is well. This is it.

7 June, 2024 21:04

Sensations and Feelings are natural and never out of place, it’s the thoughts about them branching themselves out in all directions in the absence of awareness that cause conflict. This is not to say that Thought in itself is an issue, but it’s the sense of control the Mind wants to have on feelings and thoughts, and upon reading this now, it might result in wanting to control thoughts too.
Feel it all. Feel all the way.
To fall into it all is presence. To let it all be.
Surrender. Feel the resistance to falling too, feel the need to control thoughts. Exclude nothing, for only this is liberation. To allow all that is, for this Isness is not separate from you. Again, allow the resistance to allow too. To witness the multilayeredness is to include it. And in doing so, a natural dissolution is made way for. A natural change mobilizes itself as awareness becomes aware of itself.

The openness to be ‘stuck’ is what makes one free. The passion to live and love fully here with surrender is death.

Why are a lot of us sincerely stuck and not free?

Because we confuse being stuck with stuckness.

We confuse chasing freedom with being free.

We do not discern and take it all too literally. We tend to think linearly.

This tendency to take on the identity of a free or bound entity who must strive has extended itself to even that which is supposed to make one free here and now. The ability to see deeply is clearly not being used by most, but we all arrive back here, for it’s an inevitability. All concerns about being free or not free belong to the Mind and are not real. Watch.